Down for the count
I miss not being able to grab a beer in a bar, or grab a sandwich on the street when I’m hungry. I miss going out in the evening and hanging out with other people. Drinking some, eating some and not worrying about each dollar leaving my wallet. I miss being able to treat other people to food, drink or merriment. I hate not being able to pull out my wallet when we are getting stuff for a whole load of people. It just pisses me off. Not having anything outside of the bit of money left in our pocket. Not having the money to pay next month’s rent.Everything else is great over here. So much better then being in Singapore, or most other places for that matter. This place is wonderfully relaxing. The people are nice, the city is nice, the countryside is nice. I could easily see myself spending some time living here (though I would really like to see the rest of the country). It’s just so bloody annoying that we can’t get somebody to give one of the two of us work. That would end all our worries, for the moment at least.
Perseverance is the key, I know, but it is just such a drag not to be able to do the things that we love to do together. Sitting home, smoking cigarettes and waiting for somebody to call is just not my idea of a good time (though at least we’re doing it together).
How much longer before the generosity of the people around us runs out? How much longer before the money runs out? It all wouldn’t matter, of course, if we could just find a job. Then we would be perfectly fine.
Ah, nuts. I’m going on about this far too much. You guys probably don’t want to hear about this stuff anymore. I wish there was something else to talk about, really, but right now our current state of employment is the most important and pretty much the only thing in our lives.
I’m feeling pretty miserable today. Liana started off her day badly and then recovered, but by that time my mood had plummeted to near rock bottom. It’s ok though, it is Saturday after all, so we can’t be out and about looking for work. If we have to be down then it is probably best to be down during the weekend. At least I don’t waste any valuable time that I could be looking for work.
Oh brother.
posted by Symbol @ 15.1.05
3 Comments:
I'm having the most amazing difficulty getting a job myself (and we're not even talking about full time work here) so i'm definitely there with you.
Hang in there, it can't go on forever.
On the bright side the weather, aside from one or two days, has been just lovely, great to take long walks and the like. I think walks are what hold my sanity together. Without that compulsion i'd never leave the house, because fuel is too dear to waste on the unnecessary joyride!
Hey Symbol,
I hit the next button and came across your blog...hmm about your being jobless and all..i feel you, i want to tell you so many things but i don't wanna sound cliche..i know it doesn't help to ask you to count your blessings or to tell you that someone out there has it worse...coz at the moment this is your life and you can't help but hurt..
I read your other post where you and banana argued about God..well i was raised a christian am not much of one nowdays but my belive in God still remains intact...i guess lifes's experiences make you question and think twice about God you know...him being merciful and all...but i think that he says it best when he just doesn't tell you anything but show it to you..I have had moments when i was angry at Him for not giving me so many "basic" things..well i could hurt n cry n curse at Him..but it doesn't change anything but make me a more bitter person..well i decided not to live with my bile anymore and jus let it go..
Now..i just live every day on its own and worry about tomorrow when i get there..don't get me wrong i plan and look for ways to improve my situation...but above all am a prayerful person..well i dunno much about my future but i know about my past...and that alone is enough to give me reason to live and have some hope for tomorrow.
I dunno your stand on God and i hope this does not offend you, If you don't belive in God or Prayer..then am sorry for posting this but am just going to take the chance anyway...(no offence intended)
"..Your Father knows what you need before you ask Him..."
(Matthew 6:8)
"...I am The Lord God of mankind, is anything too hard for me?..."
(Jeremiah 32:27)
"Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble on its own"
(Matthew 6:34
(hehe ok thats enuff for today)
I have my classic whines too under titles "Dear God" and "¤Happy Ending¤" in My blog.
Have a fab day! and i know your both going to pull through this!
p.s am sleepy and my comment was based on a summary of just two posts on your blog, and felt like you was going through a difficult time..i apologise if i made the wrong conclusions.
Truly,
Concrete Gurl!
chill, everyone's going through a rut at the moment. personally, ive trained myself to only eat after 1800 everyday so i dont have to eat outside and all that. i also walk if that'd save me $2.
"struggle" is my friend. i hate it but it's stuck on me like an irritating boil between my butt crack. im still learning on taking things in my stride.
what doesnt kill you will only make you stronger.
you and my sister and my entire family there. be strong.
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